The Dark Side

The Dark Side

When is it time to say Goodbye?

When is it time to say goodbye?

When the bloom is all faded,

Withered and dry?

When is it time to say farewell?

When the service is over

And tears toll the bell?

When is it time to let go of our pain?

When our loved ones are memories

That fall like rain?

When is it time to say goodbye?

When your years have all passed,

You're withered and dry.

--5/2007

EMOTION: PAIN

The pain of betrayal

Cuts to the quick

The loss that you feel

Burns like a wick

It sears into your soul

Forever there

And what's left, a shadow

That doesn't care

-E.Duman 11-9-98

A single lonely tear fell down

It tracked her face without a sound

A solitary tear fell down

Dropped off her chin and hit the ground.

-E.Duman (00)

A picture perfect family

A black and blue reality

A fun and loving father

A bruised and beaten daughter

A timid "little wife"

Who'll fight with all her life

And when the lights go down

He'll scream without a sound.

-E.Duman 10/00

So Much

So much for the husband

So much for the wife

So much for the promises

To love all their life.

So much for the laughter

So much for the tears

So much for the insights

They've formed through the years.

So much for the vows

To be there to the end

So much for the joy

Of being each other's best friend.

So much for the sharing

Of loving in the dark

So much for the bonds

That tied them heart to heart.

So much for the husband

So much for the wife

So much for their time

So much for their life.

E. Sizemore

01May02

What did I do

To make you be through?

What can I say

To make you stay?

How can I show

That I need you so?

Because of your pride

You'll cast me aside.

The unbearable part

Is the pain in my heart

A physical ache

That won't dissipate

-E.Duman 05Jan01

I've seen many sights

You wouldn't want to see

I've been many places

You wouldn't want to be

I've known many facts

No child should have to know

And all I've seen and been

Has added to my woe

I've valiently tried

To abolish my past

Ive struggled and fought

To be free of it's grasp

I've found that it haunts me

And chases my soul

It fights for posession

This demon I know

-E.Duman (~99?)

Street Scenes

Fighters in the night

Actors in the light

Turtles in their shell

Born and raised in hell

Strength pervades the air

Guns and knives their ware

Herione and crack

Death a one way track

Hookers strut their stuff

Money is never enough

The drugs are awful nice

They'll pay the ultimate price.

-E.Duman 05/00

While I sit and wonder why

I try to stop the tears I cry

I think and think but all I know

Is now you're gone I don't know what I know.

Within my chest this aching pain

Constricting tight once and again

This house of love we built with care

Is cold and desolate without you here.

I stare a bleak and empty gaze

My mind is twisting in a maze

It's chasing thoughts and dreams of you

But finding dead ends just to search anew.

When you left and where you'll go

Are things you would not let me know

But what I did to chase you off

You told me clear without a second thought.

You said I played you for a fool

And used your love just like a tool

I cheated, played, and ran around

And ran what once was love into the ground.

I'll admit it once or twice

But once you knew I changed my vice

I tried to be the perfect wife

But stil you left me and destroyed my life.

I fought to keep you, but you're gone

And now I sit here all alone

Lost and empty, aching soul

Still don't know exactly what I know.

-E.Duman 18Jan01

I took your heart while giving you mine

But this love of ours won't stand the test of time

Look at me-you may be confused

How could you know that I feel so used

Ask your questions; I may seem vague

I've been avoiding you like the plague

I can't seem to talk about it

You don't seem to care about it

We're drifting more and more apart

This distance between us tearing up my heart

"If you love something set it free"

A task which seems much harder for me

-E.Duman march 1999 age 16

Screaming silence in the night

Rage and terror take to flight

Chaos and confusion might

Reign the darkness of the night

Hatred finds unholy dread

Killers come to claim the dead

Vultures stalking, kindness fled

Silence closing 'round the dread.

-E.Duman 12/00

The rain falls softly to the ground

In a lonely tatoo

The radio plays another round

Reminding me of you

The walls of silence resound

Echoing the dark

The emptiness gathers round

Tearing my heart.

-E.Sizemore 21Jan04

Wind whistles past my ears

Blowing with it all my tears

Past the sand dunes out to sea

Never again to be shed by me

Sand swirls 'round my feet

Burning my legs with stinging heat

Reminding clear the pain I felt

Under the harsh blows you have dealt

The hurt comes back as strong as before

Making my legs collapse to the shore

The broken shells pierce me deep

Bringing with it the oblifion of sleep

The sleep will stay forevermore

With a lifeless body upon the shore

-E.Duman 3/23/97

Once upon a snowy eve

I watched my one and only leave

He packed his bags and said goodbye

And never did he see me cry

I watched him walking to the door

His coat and bags upon the floor

He bid me well and left me there

Standing in the frozen air

The taxi drove him out of sight

Far away into the night

I shut the door and said goodbye

And never did he see me cry

-E.Duman 19Jan01

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